Sicha Level 3 - Vayetzei

tzon is from the shoresh of yetzia – you go out & try to elevate the world
and this avoda brings forth the emeseh bittul of a yid to Hashem (not necessarily when he’s learning torah)
yaakov had 2 stages in life:
1 – learning in yeshivas shem v’ever – involved in torah
2 – im lavan garti – totally absorbed in his job, taryag mitzvos shamarti, 12 shevatim conceived there – charan – the place where Hashem’s wrath is – that’s the bittul of tzon
he walked away with tzon – a new level of bittul he never had before
vayifratzu bimod meod – broke out of the boundaries of yeshiva & went into the world – then you have bimod me’od

(MISSING PART IN THE MIDDLE)

vov: tzon has to have a little ben, and ben has to have a little tzon. You can’t be a nothing – have to have some identity. But can’t be all identity – have to recognize asher nasan lanu.
Has to be middas ha’azus – strength. Not to be embarrassed from those that mock you, and to have gibbur over his yetzer hara.
You are so strong BECAUSE of your bittul,
If the gevura comes because of your yeshus – you can lose – yeshus is the opposite of kedusha – this turns into a bad personality that doesn’t let you serve Hashem properly
When your identity comes from from Torah (bittul)
This is why the tur brings the baal hamaamer: r’ yehuda ben tayma
Hints to the hora’ah we get from it
Yehuda = hodaah – bittul & gratitude
It’s not enough to just start with bittul and then become an identity, you have to have “ben tayma” – to be said. Constantly being said, expressed, during the ego and personality – you see that behind it there’s bittul – it’s not about himself, it’s about torah telling him to.

Zayin: it wasn’t enough for him to just deal with tzon. Has avadim, shfachos, gamalim – bigger things with more of an existence.
2 points:
1. although he dealt with these bigger animals, he acquired them through tzon
2. even after he had the other things, he kept the tzon and that was is main thing – bittul is always the main thing, even when you have to have ego

ches: now we understand why it says all these things before the tzon – it all comes from tzon but you’re not just bittul – you have an existence. First show the strength & boldness he has – shor, chamor etc. on the outside you look like that, but on the inside it’s all coming from bittul.

Tes: the horaah: you have to spend time in yeshiva, but also go out and conquer the world – especially at this time right before moshiach. In the era of the Talmud the main thing was learning – people were really torasu umnaso. Now in our generations in golus – have to go out into the world – it’s saving neshamos.

He doesn’t care where or how, wherever Hashem takes him he goes out and tries to save neshamos. You’re on the aibishter’s shlichus – doesn’t matter the age, who they are – every jew is Hashem child (doesn’t matter if they’re spotted, (tzon), or not) Yaakov took care of all the tzon.

This will prepare all yidden for moshiach – where no jew will be left behind.